talk to me baby...

I want to be a jazz singer...

Not tour and do all that press stuff. Just stand in front of a crowd in a red silk dress with my piano player and stand up bass player and sing torch songs.

I know. pretty odd coming from the rock chick...

But those of you who KNOW me know that I love jazz. Female jazz vocalists mainly. Last night I dug out my old Holly Cole cds and put them on my iPod. I can't believe they weren't on there before! Personally i think that holly cole is waaaay better than diana krall (she has more personality in her voice), but diana is good too. Molly Johnson is wonderful as well (also has a cd that just came out). So is Cassandra Wilson (her version of Tupelo Honey live on CBC After Hours is like silk...). It just occured to me that all the women I mentioned are Canadian...hmmm...something in the water?

What would be on my set list? Hmmm....
Calling You
My Baby Just Cares for Me
Aint No Sunshine
Songbird
Landslide
Tango Till They're Sore
I Want You
Tennessee Waltz
Everyday Will Be Like A Holiday
Georgia
My Foolish Heart
Girl Talk
I'm So Lonesome I Could Cry
Completely
Tupelo Honey
He Loves Me
A Nightingale Sang In Berkley Square
I've Got You Under My Skin

and various others that I cant think of right now...probably rock tracks reworked...

So if you see a blonde on your drive home singing in her car at the top of her lungs...this time it's not the 'we will rock you' soundtrack...its just me belting out some cool jazz...

current obsessions...

well there's really only 1 obsession....The Beatles "LOVE" cd. If you haven't heard it yet go to www.thebeatles.com and listen to it. I bought it for my dad for christmas and I am seriously thisclose to cracking it open and listening to it. Thankfully someone at work has is so I've taken their copy hostage for the day. Even if you're not a fan of the Beatles give it a listen. Its all their music that was used to create the latest Cirque Du Soliel show in Vegas called "LOVE". It is freakin' amazing! Guaranteed you will not be disappointed with this musical carpet ride!

GREY CUP!

GREY CUP!

10 things will remember about my grey cup experience...

1. even though I had 3 pairs of socks on the only part of that will freeze beyond any feeling will be my feet.
2. boring game = entertaining drunk fans behind me.
3. A bunch of drunk fans chanting 'BALL ON FIELD' will eventually get security to turn their head and see a mini football on the field.
4. Make sure you have someone in your circle of friends with a good parking spot and carpool with them (thanks b&b and mom! VP's rule!)
5. enough making fun of nelly furtado. anyone would have a butt like that when you dress in layers for the grey cup in winnipeg! long johns arent necessarily slimming!
6. drunk frat boys are funny! especially when they're disappointed that nelly furtado didnt sing 'like a bird' and start singing it to their less intoxicated friends.
7. leave it to the ti-cat cheerleaders to perform a striptease at the grey cup in winnipeg! oooohh chilly!
8. leave it to the winnipeg fans in the section in front of said cheerleaders to give them a standing ovation for taking off their parkas!
9. hot seat cushions actually work! feel weird at first. kinda like you peed your pants...
10. ALWAYS BRING SOMEONE TO SNUGGLE WITH!

So yes all in all it was a very good weekend. Watched some movie (over the hedge...meh...), went out for supper, U2 in church (YES! i dare say a better highlight to the weekend than the game...???), and a bit of shopping.

BUT MAN AM I TIRED TODAY!

perceptions of reality.....

Good friday to you all...and a merry weekend as well ;)

I went for lunch yesterday with a friend (soup pierre. chicken mulligatawny. yumma!). We had a good time but as we walked back to our jobs we got to talking about reality. She was upset b/c she didn't think that certain people lived in the 'real' world. And it got me to thinking...what is the 'real' world really?

I know people who have houses bought for them by family members, are taken care of without having to work for the rest of their lives. To some that may seem 'spoiled' or 'rich', but to them, thats their reality. They don't know a different way to live. Their life has always been like that. On the other end of the spectrum there's people living on the street in some third world country that don't know that a better life out there exists for them. And that's their reality. They dont know any other way to live. Our perceptions of others reality are only in comparison with our own percieved notion of what is real to us. We don't know how they were brought up. We don't know how they got to that point. All we know is how we react to it. And I think thats where the green monster of jealousy or pity comes in. Either we're jealous of the person who seems to have everything handed to them, or we pity the poor woman living in the war torn country. But that's their reality.

Dont get me wrong, I would hope that the 'rich' person appreciates and is humble about what they have and that we should help the poor, but to judge them for it is a completely different story. You only know what is real to you. What has molded you and shaped you into the person you are today. Whatever circumstances, good or bad, have come your way are your reality. Yours and yours alone. It is in how we react and handle these circumstances that make our reality a postive or negative one.


phew...deep breath...

i love jeopardy!

I love when 5:30pm rolls around and supper is cooking and i can curl up on the couch and watch jeopardy and either feel a) extremely brilliant or b) ridiculously stupid....

yesterday was a brilliant day and it looks to be for the rest of the week. Why? because its celebrity jeopardy! the time of year when they trot out everyone from issac mizrahi to the cast of law and order to play for charity. now i enjoy the original jeopardy, and even the teen jeopardy but celebrity jeopardy...a monkey could answer those questions! for instance last night they had a whole category dedicated to 'dumb questions'. the answer to the question was in the answer for each question. so hilarious. needless to say i had a very smart 1/2 hr with myself and came away feeling pretty good.

so other than that...how was your day? rob is feeling better and is back at work but now the guy in the cube next to me is out sick. just stay away from me! either that or i can get it tomorrow and have thursday/friday off and be better by the weekend. i know its twisted to think that way, but hey! if you're gonna be sick, why not then?? heehee!

no bad dreams last night...just about someones wedding (who shall remain nameless...). weirdest wedding i've ever dreamed of! hahaha!

keep on rockin in the free world!-adrienne

last night i had a dream....

and if you can guess where that line is from i'll give you 5 diet cokes...

so yes, i did have a dream last night. a very bad dream. so bad it woke me up and i couldnt get back to sleep. thankfully it happened around 5:30am so it wasnt like i had just fallen asleep and would be awake for the rest of the night. so i just woke rob up and forced him to cuddle with me...poor guy...

the dream? i was being attacked by some freak stalker. the guy who stalked, kidnapped and murdered dru shodin in grand forks 2 yrs ago. but in my dream he came after me in my bedroom as i was getting ready for work. he had a crowbar and i had a flashlight (heavy duty steel one). Somehow i wrestled the crowbar away from him and beat him up. then ran out of the house only to get in the car and see him kicking out the siding from the inside underneath the bedroom window (why not kick out the window???). it got really weird from there on (911, frat boys, cobwebs, cops, rental properties) and i eventually woke up. again thankfully rob was there to cuddle my fears away (but it requried him waking up so i guess i owe him big)...

.speaking of my hubby, the poor boy was sick all day sunday. he had the stomach flu. So i took care of him. nurse adrienne. made him comfortable on the couch, putting in disc after disc of 'Rides' or any other movie he wanted to watch. getting the bucket in case he had to hurl. i have never in my life seen or heard a MAN vomit before, and guaranteed there is no sound in this world it can be compared to. something from the depths of hell can only make that sound. it was the oddest, grossest, most distgusting sound i've ever heard (and i've heard my brother in law sing!). (now the following may sound heartless) I wanted to laugh whenever i heard it, but i know he was in so much pain and just so sick that lying on the bathroom floor was the only respite from the dry heaving....but i laughed about it the next day. when i was sure he was healthy enough to laugh with me. he didnt think it was funny until i pointed out that he would do the exact same thing to me if i made those kind of noises...he agreed and laughed.

So now another week has begun. Christmas decorations are up in the foyer of the building and the family gatherings start this weekend. Is it weird that i already know what i'm going to wear to the family gathering? is it also weird that i know its on grey cup sunday? yeah, me the big sports fan....

a painful smile...

yeah so i'm pretty uninspired right now. I supposed I should wait till I am inspired to write something but that could be a while so I thought I'd jot down a few thoughts as they run rampant past my mind. Brace yourself...

Am I full of myself for blogging? It has occured to me in the past few weeks that all I (or we) do for that matter, is blog about ourselves. Our pain. Our joy. Our blatherings. Meanwhile we live in the western hemisphere! We have a roof over our heads, electricity in our homes, food on our tables, and whatever we think we are lacking or 'poor' in is no match for those who live in third world countries where poor and surviving have true meaning. We think we're poor when we've got $5 in the bank, when, if we were somewhere else in the world we'd be considered rich! You think heatbreak is a family member ignoring your phone call, a friend being distant or a lover leaving you. But they're still here. You can see them. You can touch them (if they let you), you can hear their voice. Sure they may not be the words you want to hear, but still, their voice is audible. See what I'm getting at?

We seriously need to get over ourselves sometimes. Its not about 'me', its about 'we'. And the moment you realize that this world is so much bigger than your little environment you've closeted yourself into, then your life becomes something different. Something inspiring. Something adventurous. Something you want to live and not miss a moment of. Think of the time wasted wallowing in 'self', when that time could be spent bettering the world? You may think 'how can I? I don't know where to start?'. Do this...smile...stand in front of your mirror and smile. Tears may come and you may think that you dont' have the right to smile, that you don't want to smile, but DO IT. Then take a step out your front door and smile at the first person you see. They may think you're crazy, but do it anyway...crazy or not, guaranteed 95% of people will smile back. You just made someone's day, whether they know it or not.

(Dont get me wrong, I'm not trivializing pain. True pain. But living in that pain and letting it suck the life out of you is another thing. Sometimes enough is enough. Suck it up. Don't try to 'understand' pain. Pain is pain because we don't understand it. If we did understand pain, it wouldnt be so painful. right?)

Not bad for someone who started this post uninspired...